This is nothing but my first diary in english.
I do not know why I am writing this. I just wanted to do that.
Currently I have studied in Canada as a master's student. It has been about 7 months since it started and I have been busy almost everyday, like other colleagues. Studying til late night, a lot of assignments, lack of english and limited options for food.. I canot deny that these things are stressful sometimes. But all these stuff are secondary.
Some friends asked me for what I live this way. They just focus on ..compensation. For them doing masters or phd without high salary after graduation is meaningless. For them it is waste of time. It may be true if I consider this life with economic viewpoint. When it is expected that the output will not change, it is reasonable to reduce the input as much as possible. And this is how many people live everyday.
But the thing is, it is not about other people at all but me. The thing is, I am happy with this life. Even though there are bunch of guys who are better than me, I feel like I am in the right place. I feel quite lucky coz I found what kind of life I truly want in my 20s. I know some never find what they want til they die for many reasons.
Nothing is forever so it is surely possible for my status to be extremely changed in different direction later. But I still write this so that I can remember that it is me at this moment.